Boom Tayayap

IMAGE Test: Bulimaw

2009-03-09T00:13:00.001+08:00

Gotta test them all!

BLOG Test

2009-03-08T23:37:00.004+08:00

NEW UPDATE By: edison.ferrer06---I wanna test it again! CONTENTS OF OLD POST:

This is a blog test!

BLOG Test

2009-03-08T23:37:00.003+08:00

I updated the Post "This is not a test anymore!"

Image Testing

2009-03-08T23:34:00.002+08:00

This is an image test!

Sagot sa Bulungan

2008-09-11T23:48:00.005+08:00

Patuloy ang pananahimik bagama't malakas ang ihip ng hangin. Dinig sa bawat pasilyo ang ugong na nakapangingilabot. Ngunit ang malamig na simoy ng hangin ay tahimik na iniinda. Pinili naming manahimik.

Patuloy ang bulung-bulungan, mga usap-usapan, mga haka-haka. Ngunit sila'y walang nalalaman. Salita ng salita. Wala namang mga laman. Kami sana'y yayanig sa paligid. Ngunit kami'y nagpipigil. Ang swerte naman nila.

Ang kabilang dulo ng linya ay walang kibo. Ang kabila pinukaw pa ang isip ng ibang tao. Kung tunay ngang hangad niyo'y patas na kumpetisyon, hingin nyo rin ang panig ng nasasakdal. Walang masamang kampihan ang naagrabyado. Wag lang tratuhing hindi kapwa ang natuturo.

Kami'y hindi kumikibo. Kami'y hindi sumasagot. Binabato na ng semento sa ulo, kami'y nagtali upang hindi makakilos. Kami'y hindi magtatanggol laban sa mga taong walang bait sa ulo.

UP-NDSG-3 post 2

2008-09-09T14:03:00.001+08:00

Testing 2

Blog mula sa UP

2008-09-09T14:00:00.001+08:00

Tae! Ang galing namin!!

hello world 3

2008-08-29T22:33:00.001+08:00

hello world 3

Hello World 2

2008-08-23T00:04:00.001+08:00

Testing lang.

Hello World

2008-08-14T00:19:00.001+08:00

This is a test

Tagubilin at Habilin

2008-05-14T17:17:00.000+08:00

ni J. Lacaba

Mabuhay ka, kaibigan!
Mabuhay ka!
Iyan ang una’t huli kong
Tagubilin at habilin:
Mabuhay ka!

Sa edad kong ito, marami akong maibibigay na payo.
Mayaman ako sa payo.

Maghugas ka ng kamay bago kumain.
Maghugas ka ng kamay pagkatapos kumain.
Pero huwag kang maghuhugas ng kamay para lang makaiwas sa sisi.
Huwag kang maghuhugas ng kamay kung may inaapi
Na kaya mong tulungan.

Paupuin sa bus ang matatanda at ang mga may kalong na sanggol.
Magpasalamat sa nagmamagandang-loob.
Matuto sa karanasan ng matatanda
Pero huwag magpatali sa kaisipang makaluma.

Huwag piliting matulog kung ayaw kang dalawin ng antok.
Huwag pag-aksayahan ng panahon ang walang utang na loob.
Huwag makipagtalo sa bobo at baka ka mapagkamalang bobo.
Huwag bubulong-bulong sa mga panahong kailangang sumigaw.

Huwag kang manalig sa bulung-bulungan.
Huwag kang papatay-patay sa ilalim ng pabitin.
Huwag kang tutulog-tulog sa pansitan.

Umawit ka kung nag-iisa sa banyo.
Umawit ka sa piling ng barkada.
Umawit ka kung nalulungkot.
Umawit ka kung masaya.

Ingat lang.

Huwag kang aawit ng “My Way” sa videoke bar at baka ka mabaril.
Huwag kang magsindi ng sigarilyo sa gasolinahan.
Dahan-dahan sa matatarik na landas.
Dahan-dahan sa malulubak na daan.

Higit sa lahat, inuulit ko:

Mabuhay ka, kaibigan!
Mabuhay ka!
Iyan ang una't huli kong
Tagubilin at habilin:
Mabuhay ka!

Maraming bagay sa mundo na nakakadismaya.
Mabuhay ka.
Maraming problema ang mundo na wala na yatang lunas.
Mabuhay ka.

Sa hirap ng panahon, sa harap ng kabiguan,
Kung minsan ay gusto mo nang mamatay.
Gusto mong maglaslas ng pulso kung sawi sa pag-ibig.
Gusto mong uminom ng lason kung wala nang makain.
Gusto mong magbigti kung napakabigat ng mga pasanin.
Gusto mong pasabugin ang bungo mo kung maraming gumugulo sa utak.

Huwag kang patatalo. Huwag kang susuko.

Narinig mo ang sinasabi ng awitin:
”Gising at magbangon sa pagkagupiling,
Sa pagkakatulog na lubhang mahimbing.”
Gumising ka kung hinaharana ka ng pag-ibig.
Bumangon ka kung nananawagan ang kapuspalad.

Ang sabi ng iba: “Ang matapang ay walang-takot lumaban.”
Ang sabi ko naman: Ang tunay na matapang ay lumalaban
Kahit natatakot.

Lumaban ka kung inginungodngod ang nguso mo sa putik.
Bumalikwas ka kung tinatapak-tapakan ka.
Buong-tapang mong ipaglaban ang iyong mga prinsipyo
Kahit hindi ka sigurado na agad-agad kang mananalo.

Mabuhay ka, kaibigan!
Mabuhay ka!
Iyan ang una't huli kong
Tagubilin at habilin:
Mabuhay ka!

Inilathala ng Bulatlat

*Ang “Tagubilin at Habilin” ay kasama sa album ni Armida Siguion-Reyna na POP LOLA. Ang background music ay kay Ryan Cayabyab.

WALA lang

2008-04-15T21:44:00.002+08:00

Narito ako't dumapa,
nag-iisip ng salita,
nagmumuni sa kama,
upang bumuo sa wala.

Narito ako't umupo,
humahanap ng kataga,
napapakamot sa ulo
upang makabuo mula sa wala

Itongayo't humilata,
balik-aral sa wika
dahil tila nangangapa
na makalikha sa wala

Ako'y di mapakali
sa ginagawa'y nawiwili.
Isa kasing hamong maituturing
ang magka-obra mula sa wala

Not Because of Boredom

2008-02-24T23:47:00.003+08:00

A Moon Serenade

At the passing of the night
there a shining knight
silently stands by
the barely lit sky

Him with his majestic light
accompanied by stars bright
is the only Moon in sight
for his is the world tonight

Watching the world with intent
Keeping its secrets at his best
While the world sleeps to rest
He travels and patrols to the west

Moon, residing in the dark
Your existence is blessed
Your light cuts through the night
Making sure there will be morning bright

Moon residing in the dark
Your existence is cursed
Your tears eaten by the black void
Unheard by stars million miles away

It Says What It Says

2008-02-23T23:35:00.002+08:00

Lame

Just plain lame
Who people are
What people are
Why are people

Just plain pathetic
Where people stand
How they make a stand
then, masked, they stand

Lame, lame, lame
Simply pathetic
Faceless we are
though, unmasked, we are

A Reason Each

2008-01-02T23:57:00.001+08:00

I couldn't. Why? I have no money. I'm still a student and not yet earning.

I shouldn't. Why? I have no time. Studies, video games. Too much to do.

I wouldn't. Why? She gives me enough reason not to. She tells me to court this girl that I do not like at all. No offense there.

Man, she really wants to see me pissed off. If that's what she wants, she's gonna get it.

And you, the reader, don't go asking what I'm talking about. Know how to read, dimwit.

Not Really Because I Wanted To

2007-12-20T21:40:00.000+08:00

My own Christmas Wishlist (in no particular order and no particular reason):

1. Sony PSP

2. Sony PS3

3. Nintendo Wii

4. Nintendo DS

5. Laptop

6. Another desktop (a more powerful one of course)

7. My own Gundam model collection

8. Money

9. Time

10. Life

Wala lang. Nainggit lang ako sa mga taong ramdam na ramdam ang Pasko. Baka kasi maramdaman ko na ring magpa-Pasko pag nagsulat din ako ng ganito.

Unfortunately, I was wrong.

A Little Late

2007-12-06T22:04:00.000+08:00

Matagal ng tapos ang naganap sa Manila Pen na tila mas exciting na replay ng nangyari sa Oakwood. Replay na naging mas exciting sa live. Kakaiba talaga. Buti di ako pumasok nun.

Pero tulad na lang ng replay, hindi ako natuwa sa ginawang iyon ni Trillanes. At magpapasalamat lang ako sa kanya. Salamat, Trillanes. This country's downfall just got a bit closer. Just wait. In your cell.

Isang malaking palya ang ginawa ni Trillanes. Magkagayon man, ano naman kung magtagumpay siya? Wala namang maiiba.

It failed to inspire the people. Though it is a fact that many Filipinos want PGMA out of the office, what will the masses achieve? Papalitan lang sya ng mga taong katulad ng mga nagpatalsik kay Erap noon.

Trillanes's call for a movement wouldn't succeed because the people are tired. Ayaw ng mga tao na mangailangan pang kalabitin ang gatilyo. Ang mikropono ng mga tao ay lawit na ang dila. Sawang sawa na sila sa paikot-ikot na lang na takbo ng pulitika. Ayaw na nilang magpagamit pa dahil alam nilang mapa-oposisyon man o administrasyon, parehong may mga gahaman at makakapal ang mukha.

Hindi kasi sumasapat ang sipain lang sa pwesto ang pinuno at siya'y palitan. Nararapat din na magkaroon ng pangkalahatang pagbabago. Kung matatanggal ang nakaupo ngayon at makakasuhan, dapat ding ikulong ang mga pinuno ng oposisyon dahil maging sila ay mga dungis.

Ayaw na kasi ng masa ng dugo o ng pawis o maging ng laway. Tuyot na kasi ang mga panahong iyon. Hindi pa ba sapat na ang pangalan ng EDSA ay naabuso na? Do we really have to wait for a war to break out before we know what really the problem is?

If your considering that the root of the problem is the one at Malacanang, then you're way off. That woman, or whoever, is sitted at Malacanang is just one of the many fruits of the true cause. At habang wala tayong ibang inatupag kundi ang banatan ang bunga, hindi natin napapansin na ang ibang prutas ay nakapaglaglag na ng kanilang mga buto sa lupa upang lumikha ng mga panibagong problema.

Sana lang ay wag tayo mawalan ng pag-asa. Marami pang bukas at ang manalangin lang sa Diyos ay hindi kailanman sasapat upang mailigtas tayo.

Tula ng Aking Mga Tula

2007-11-02T00:11:00.000+08:00

Salitang tagpi-tagpi
patung-patong at sari-sari
kataga'y tila tinahi
pinipilit kahit nakakarindi

Tula ng puso
yan ay laging uso
hindi man masabi ng bibig
o kaya'y masaliwan ng himig

Tula ng ngitngit
nagsusumigaw na tinig
pero nananatiling tahimik
kunwari'y hindi umiimik

Tula ng luha
nabubuo sa dusa at aba
kahit pa papel ay mabasa
panulat, sumusulat ng kusa

Tula ng halakhakan
minsan nakikiisa ang kalangitan
pero sa lahat ng aking likha
pinakawalang kwenta ay sila

Sa pag-ibig, poot, saya o luha
tula, laman ay aking diwa
sana lang pagpasensyahan na
ganyan lang talaga ako manula

Magwawakas na

2007-10-18T00:11:00.000+08:00

Sana tapos na. Sana. Sana.

Ito ang paulit-ulit na bumubulong saking isipan. Di ko alam kung sinong nagsasabi. Di ko alam kung saan nanggagaling.

Yan din ang laman ng halos lahat ng statusboxes ng mga nasa listahan ko sa YM. Lahat hinihiling na matapos na. Lahat nagmamadali. Lahat gusto ng makatikim ng pahinga.

Habang ako'y nakaupo, nag-iisip at ipinipindot ang mga salitang napupulot ko sa nalulusaw ko ng utak, tila ba bumagal pa ang oras. Oo, pumayapa ang mundo. Tumahimik pero bumagal ang oras.

Humaba pa lalo ang pagitan ng sakripisyo at ang kapalit nitong saya. Ang akala ko, natin, nila, namin, mo, ninyo na pagwawakas ng paghihirap na ito ay hindi pa rin abot-kamay.

Naabot man ito ng ating mga palad, unti-unting ito'y dumudulas palayo. Palayo ng palayo hanggang sa ito'y dahan-dahang maglaho sa panigin.

Kung ito man ay nahuli na natin sa ating nakakuyom na mga kamay, ito'y nagpupumiglas at dahan-dahang makakawala. Maihuhulog. Mabibitawan. Mababasag. Tuluyang madudurog hanggang sa ang pinakamaliit na piraso ng bubog nito ay di na natin makikita pa.

Bagama't dumating man ang hinihintay nating katapusan, kapalit naman nito'y panibagong mga alalahanin. Maigapos man natin at maitali sa puno ng nara ang ating inaasam na pagtatapos, tayo naman ay maaaring habangbuhay ng nakagapos sa kapalarang hindi na magkaroon ng kalayaan mula sa mga pagsubok na ito.

Magkagayon man, wag sana tayong panghinaan ng loob. Ang panghinaan ng loob ay katumbas lamang ng pakikinig sa sermon ng pari pero hindi mo naman matandaan kung anong mga pinagsasabi nya pagkaalis mo.

Wag kang yumukod o maawa sa sarili. Ang magsa-walang pakialam ay laging talo. Ang magsa-walang kibo ay para lamang sa mga walang pangarap.

Ang mundong ito'y itinakda na tumakbo sa ganitong paraan. Tumingala ka at tumingin sa langit. Aabutin ko ang liwanag. Samahan mo ko. Makakaya natin.

Difficult to Handle

2007-10-16T22:49:00.000+08:00

For reasons even I don't know, I have encountered very few 'real' goodbyes in my life. The only goodbyes I've come to know are those that 'end quickly.' Yung tipo bang bukas lang matatapos na agad.

If my memory serves me right, I have not yet said any real goodbye in my entire 18 years, 10 months, and 6days (as this was typed-in) of living.

Maybe because I hate goodbyes. Movies, I guess. And observations, too, I guess.

Everytime someone (or something, maybe) is about to leave, I'm always the one who doesn't feel the need to say goodbye. I always make excuses like "Babalik ka pa naman e," "Nandyan ka lang naman e," "Para namang ang hirap pumunta sa inyo."

I just hate to say it. I just don't want to. I don't want to be sad. I don't want to see someone go, knowing they'll be gone for almost eternity or until oblivion owns my memories of them.

I just hate to shed a tear to for something I think is lame. I don't want to look at myself to see that I was left behind. I was never used to that.

I always look forward to the future, to the hope that tomorrow holds. If I end up knowing that tomorrow doesn't hold a light, I don't care. I still won't see me bowing as if I was left behind. If the situation calls for it, I will be the light of hope. If that would be too much to handle, I want to be one of the people who brought back the hope of tomorrow. But never the one whose heart was left by hope.

I just hate being left behind. I hate being sad. I hate being hurt. I don't know why. Maybe I'm just too tired. Maybe I'm just too afraid. Maybe I just don't want to be weak, anymore.

I guess with this much pride, handling more 'real goodbyes' in the future won't be any easier.

Magkano na kaya ang isang Gundam model ngayon? Hmmm. . . =p

Politically speaking

2007-10-02T22:59:00.000+08:00

For some reason, I want to blog for the hottest political issue in the Philippines right now, the ZTE Broadband deal for the National Broadband Network (NBN) project of the government. Currently, senate hearings are ongoing (man, do they know anything better to do than senate hearings and/or inquiries?).

Just a few days before this was posted, COMELEC Commisioner Benjamin Abalos resigns from his post. I really don't know his reason(s) for doing so but I guess it's just one of 2 things: the hearings are just too much to bear or it's a part of the government's "Plan B."

Let's start off with this: why would the government want to pay almost $330-M to a foreign broadband company if we already have some of the fastest and biggest broadband networks locally? I really don't have to type it in but it's KICK-BACK.

The chosen representatives of the people of the government of the Republic of the Philippines (PGRP) are FG Mike Arroyo and (former) Comelec Commisioner Benjamin Abalos. Knowing that the project has been drawn from bad paint and covered with another better painting, they expected that smoke will come out somewhere. They started the fire anyway.

The seemingly heroic appearance of Jose De Venecia III (JDV3) may be part of a real rift among the PGRP ranks. Why? The speaker's son's company was kicked away from the kick-back. Which MOTU-Congress won't be angry at his BD if he was snubbed from a "good" deal?

To somehow extinguish the fire, BD must find a way to tame her TL/MOTU-Congress. What she did? Turn the whole PGRP against the "least important" member yet creates a big political effect when kicked out, former Comelec Commissioner Benjamin Abalos. He doesn't play much of a role as a member but when removed, the PGRP can make an excuse for delaying the baranggay elections. Right?

And so they did. Some Neri-man confesses that poor FCCBA tried to bribe him. Knowing the eminent abandonment of him by his comrades, he chooses to "Back-off!"

The End.

*Everything written are merely theory. Believing them won't get you anywhere. I promise.

Background Music

2007-09-25T23:09:00.000+08:00

Tumutugtog kasi ang 'Anna ni Isshoni Datta no ni.' Nakakita ako ng English transliteration. Ayos.

'We were so close together, but the twilight has a different color now.'

Tahimik ang binata sa harap ng monitor. Panay ang kanyang click pero panay din naman ang tingin niya sa listahan ng mga onlayn sa kanyang instant messenger. Tapos magliliwanag ang kanyang mukha. Nandyan na kasi ang paborito niyang kakuwentuhan. Double-click agad. 'Psst! Hehe.' 'Psst ka din.' 'Yes, sumagot!'

'The abundance of kindness only keeps a distance between us.'

Matagal na silang nagkukwentuhan lagi. Laging nag-uusap sa kung anu-ano. Tungkol sa kani-kanilang mga buhay, mga plano, at sa mga kanilang kasalukuyang karanasan. Nagsimula ang lahat sa simpleng 'Kaklase kita?!' Hanggang sa madalas na silang magkasama. Lumalim pero hanggang sa hangganan na lang ng pagkakaibigan.

'Our coldly ignored hearts are wandering in the midst.'

Hindi na lang pinansin ang mga nadarama. Hindi na kasi pwede. Sinubukan niya ng umamin. Mali. Umamin na siya pero nagbulagbulagan na lang sila. Wag lang masira ang naging pagkakaibigang matibay na.

'If this awkwardness is what it's like to live,'

Sa ginawang pag-amin, may nailang. Nagkaiwasan. Para di na masaktan pa syang lalo, lumayo ang isa sa isa. Ang pagkakaibigan kaya'y naroon pa?

'we shall close our eyes under the cold sky.'

Ipikit ang mata. Yan na lang ang ginawa. Maging bulag. Sa malamig at madilim na kalungkutan. Pagkakaibigan ay naisalba ngunit ang sugat ay lumalim kaya o mawala?

*Ang quoted lines po in english ay transliteration ng chorus ng Anna ni Isshoni Datta no ni ng See-Saw. Ang awit ay theme ng Gundam Seed.

Laman lang siya ng playlist ko

2007-09-13T22:06:00.000+08:00

Ngayon ko lang na-realize. Sakto din pala ito. Akalain mo nga naman ano?

Nerbyoso

by Rivermaya

Isang gabing kasama ka
Walang ginagawang iba
Kundi mag-usap sa mata

Bigla akong tinawag
Uwian na pala
Pag-lingon ko'y wala ka na
Ilang gabi na 'kong lubhang nagdaramdam
Kahit pangalan mo'y hidi ko pa alam

Sasabihin ko na sana't
Aaminin sa iyo
Lahat lahat ng itinatago ng
Puso kong
Alipin ng kaba
Alam mo naman tayo
Walang magawa
Nerbyoso

Nais ko sanang makapiling kang muli
Kahit saglit lang kahit lamang sandali
Pagka't ilang gabi na 'kong nagdaramdam
Pa'no kung di ka na muling matagpuan
ilang gabi na 'kong lubhang nagdaramdam
kase mahal kita hindi mo pa alam

Ito na naman ako

2007-09-10T23:10:00.000+08:00

Ako'y humihiling
nagmamakaawa, nagsusumamo
sa kahit sino
na makakabasa nito
makakasaksi sa patak ng luha
makakarinig sa bawat, lahat ng hiyaw
makakagapos sa poot ng isip
makakadama sa lagay ng puso

Ipagkaloob sana ang hiling
ang inaasam, hinahanap
sa kahit anong paraan
hindi kailangan
ang sa alam, palagay
iniisip mo na problema
dahil sa simula
tanto na ang sakit, ugat ng hirap

Kailanga'y gamot, solusyon
hindi nais ang payo
na baka sakali lang
isang maling hinuha, patay
tapos ang lahat ng nasimulan, mawawala
mabuti nga kung madali, sa isang iglap
maglalaho kasama ang galos, sugat, latay, pilat
ngunit hihirap munang mabuti bago maging sa kawalan

Pagkatapos ng Biyernes, Sabado

2007-09-08T14:18:00.000+08:00

Biyernes:

Nagkaroon ng maliit na pagsasama-sama ng buong tropa sa Bliss. Kumpleto lahat. Si Nyoy, si DJ, si Tony, si John Lloyd, si Aidz, si Franz, si Jaric, si Christian, si Moe, si Red, at pati na rin si John Dee na kapatid ni John Lloyd. Papunta pa lang kami sa "bahay" ay naghahagikgikan na kami. Apat na pizza ang in-order sa pangalan ni Mr. Tayap Santos. Naging walo dahil sa palm card ni Franz.

Wala kaming ginawa kundi mag-PS2, kumain, manood, at magkuwentuhan. Kasama na dun siyempre yung tawanan. Sa sobrang saya, muntik nang hindi mag-uwian. Haha.

Unang beses ko ding uminom ng Red Horse. Pag-uwi ko nga parang sinusunog yung mukha ko e.

Sabado:

I was really looking forward to this day. Swimming sa UP Arcade. Hindi 'siya' lumangoy. Pagkatapos ng klase, nagkayayaan na mag-Jollibee sa Philcoa. Kaso traffic sa u-turn kaya naisipang mag-SM na lang. Pero sa kadahilanang di ko alam, sa Trinoma kami napadpad.

Mabilis kong naubos ang aking pagkain. Sabi nga ni Jaric, "Huling kain mo na ba 'yan?" Di ko nga rin alam kung bakit ako nagmamadali nun e.

Ang isa pang nakakapagtaka, sunod-sunod ang pagbagsak ng mga kagamitan sa paligid. Parang 'yung buong staff ng Jollibee ay clumsy sa araw na iyon.

Nung matapos kaming kumain, nagkakwentuhan na ng biglang sinabi niya, "May boyfriend na nga pala akong bago." Patay. Tinamaan ng magaling.

Wala ng laman ang listahan. Ayoko na muna magdagdag.

Lesson: Pag tumawa ng isang buong gabi, asahan may malas kinabukasan.

Bilanggo

2007-07-15T01:16:00.000+08:00

Paalala: Ang susunod na literatura ay kathang-isip lamang na hango sa isang tunay na pangyayari.

"Panaginip lang pala." Napabalikwas ako sa kalagitnaan ng gabi. Malamig na ang ihip ng hangin pero pinagpapawisan ako. Naisipan kong tumungo sa banyo upang maghilamos na siya namang aking ginawa. Sa paggapang ng tubig na ipinahid ko sa aking mukha, ako ay napatingin sa salamin. Halos wala akong makita maliban sa medyo madilim na repleksyon ng aking mukha. Maya-maya pa ay naging bughaw ang kulay ng mga mata ko sa salamin.

Nagliwanag bigla ang repleksyon. Isang nilalang na may puting kasuotan, pakpak ng ibon at buhok na parang sinulid na kumikinang ang pumalit sa mukha ko sa salamin. Nginitian niya ako. Bagamat nakapangingilabot ang mga nangyayari, hindi naman ako natakot. Yun ang nakikita ko sa kanyang mga mata.

Sa pagtitig ko sa kanyang mga maaamong bughaw na mata, hindi ko napansing naglaho na pala ang banyo at napalitan ng isang hardin na ang tanging bakod ay ang kabundukan at gubat na pumapaligid dito. Iniabot niya ang kanyang malambot na palad at nakipagkamay sa akin.

Parang nabasa niya ang aking isipan at sinabing, "Ako ikaw," habang kinakamayan ako. At sa pagkakataong iyon, nagliyab ang buong hardin. Biglang naging bulkan ang pinakamataas na bahagi ng kabundukan. Siya man ay biglang nagliyab kaya ako'y bumitaw.

Naglaho ang apoy na bumabalot sa kanyang katawan ngunit siya ay nanatili doon pero nagbagong anyo. Ang puting pakpak ng ibon ay napalitan ng pulang pakpak at kamukha ng sa paniki. Nagliliyab na pula din ang kanyang mga mata, parang puno ng galit. Puro din peklat ang kanyang mga braso.

Nilapitan niya ako. Nginitian at sinabing, "Ako rin ikaw." Iba ang kanyang ngiti. Malamig. Pinagmamasdan ko pa ang kanyang mga mata ng bigla niyang iangat ang kanyang kamay at ipinasok iyon sa aking dibdib. Hindi niya agad na binunot ang kamay pero kanyang pinaglaruan ang aking puso sa kanyang kamay. Masakit. Huminto siya sandali at inilabas ang kanyang kamay kasama ang aking puso.

Napapikit na lang ako at hinayaang bumagsak ang katawan sa lupa.

"Panaginip lang pala." Napabalikwas ako sa kama sa kalagitnaan ng gabi, pawis na pawis, hapong hapo. Kaya't naisipan kong maghilamos at doon ay napansin kong may kakaiba sa salamin, ang mga mata ko ay bughaw.

Hindi Ako Ok

2007-06-24T20:26:00.000+08:00

Madalas nating tanong sa mga kaibigan natin ang "ok ka lang?". Madalas ding sagot sa tanong na ito ang "oo, ok lang ako." Hindi ba't nakakapagtaka?

Nakakapagtaka dahil bihira kong matanggap ang sagot na hindi kapag ako ang nagtanong kung ok lang sila kahit halata naman sa ikinikilos nila na wala sila sa mood. Hindi ba dapat bilang isang kaibigan, dapat silang magtiwala na kaya ng kanilang mga tinuturing na kaibigan na pagaangin ang kanilang nararamdaman. Hindi ba kaya nga sila naging mga kaibigan ay dahil kaya ka nilang paligayahin.

Nakakapagtaka din naman kung bakit pa tayo nagtatanong kung ok ang isang tao pero kapag hindi naman ang isinagot nila ay wala tayong ibang ginawa kundi ang layuan sila. Hindi ba't dahil nga mga kaibigan nila tayo, obligasyon nating pagaangin ang kanilang mga nadarama sabihin man nila o hindi ang dahilan ng kanilang lungkot. Hindi naman siguro nila tayo magiging kaibigan kung hindi natin kayang gawin iyon.

Kaya mabuti pang wag ng magtanong ng "Ok ka lang?" o kaya naman ay imbes na sumagot ng oo o hindi ay ibalik ang tanong sa kanila ng ganito, "kung hindi ba ang isasagot ko, gagawa ka ba ng paraan?"

They Can Never Understand

2007-06-15T21:48:00.000+08:00

"Education's purpose is to replace an empty mind with an open mind." - Malcolm Forbes

I read this quote on TV. I forgot who said the quote but, thanks to Google, I found out it was some Malcolm Forbes.

I just don't know why. Is it bad to change? Is it bad to express my opinions? Is it bad to try correct what I consider wrong? Is it bad to become weird or different? Is it bad to learn more? Is it bad to argue for what I believe in and what I think?

Once these questions have been answered, why?

Then again, is it bad to be smarter than your own parents? Is knowledge bad once you find out you know more than them? Is it bad to be misunderstood? Is it wrong to hope that they'll understand you someday?

Damn it. Damn it all.

Ayoko ng umasa pa. Sa kahit saan. Sa kahit ano. Sa kahit sino. Sa kahit paano. Sa kahit anong dahilan. Sa paghihintay. Sa pagmamatiyag. Sa panonood. Sa pakikinig. Sa lahat-lahat.

Ayoko ng mag-isip pa. Ng kahit ano. Ng kahit sino.

Sh*t. 4 days from this post, isang taon na kong walang girlfriend. Sana nga ganun lang kababaw ito. Haha.

Hudyat ng Wakas at Panimula

2007-06-07T22:35:00.000+08:00

It would be a few days before classes officially start and it will be on a supposed-to-be holiday, the Philippines' Independence Day. Oo, sa Araw ng Kalayaan ang unang araw ng pasok namin para sa acadaemic year '07-'08.

Maliban siguro sa pagtahak ulit sa malupit na registration process ng unibersidad, nandyan na rin ang tag-ulan. Sadyang tapos na naman ang bakasyong walang pinatunguhan. Luckily, naisip ng aking tiyo na mag-swimming 2 days before my classes officially start. Talk about delayed sunburns.

At least there are a few things to look forward to this semester like better looking girls in our department and better looking girls in our department. Thank God for freshmen! Other than that, I am getting to see my crush again. Pretty lame but it's still no. 2 on my things to look forward to this semester.

I just wish that this 1st semester will be one of my best semesters ever. I hate it when the 1st semester turns out pretty nasty. It's been going on that way for 2 years now.

Well, good luck!

Reformatted Brain

2007-06-04T01:17:00.001+08:00

Due to some problems, the 'Aym Bak' series will not have a continuation anymore. It's all in the title, man. I just feel so damn stupid today. Isa pa, nakakatamad magkwento sa pamamagitan ng pagpindo-pindot ng mga buton sa keyboard. Mas maganda pag sa personal.

Sorry. Masakit lang talaga ulo at hinliliit ko sa paa ngayon. Namamaga pa rin nga yung hinliliit ko kahit na tatlong linggo na siya. Yun lang.

Aym Bak!! Part 2

2007-05-27T23:29:00.000+08:00

Aside from thinking because of Scrabble and looking at the stars, I also spent most of my time looking, searching for words in Boggle and watching out for babes.

I really enjoyed playing Boggle since you only have to search for words which are in the dictionary and are as long as possible. Not that I'm bragging but my competitors seem to have a hard time putting up a challenge against me. They were no match for my very imaginative eyes. Well, at least my eyes were put into good use and not the usual stuff I use them with.

Anyway, on the contrary, I had little satisfaction with babe searching. So much for undiscovered beauties. The only cute ones I saw where my second cousins!! I was so disappointed. The one and only girl who passed my ratings was the one I saw in Cebu while I was playing bingo with my aunts at SM. And I wasn't even able to approach her!

Why? Because there's an 80% chance of a language barrier! Man, I was in the Visayas region. What do you expect?

And yeah, of course. Since we're in the province, we also took the time to visit Papang's land and get some fruit. We arrived only to find out that some thieves have been stealing some of the produce. You can't really blame them. The place doesn't have any means to prevent people from coming in and out without permission. We also took a short dip at the nearby beach. It's an open beach and it's just a beach, not a resort so it's free.

Aym Bak!! Part 1

2007-05-25T22:04:00.000+08:00

Makalipas ang halos pitong araw, isang libing, maraming bisaya, lalong maraming mga salitang bisaya, sandamakmak na kamag-anak, at sandamukal na beses na pagkakaumpog, AYM BAK!!

It really didn't hurt staying away from the city for about a week. I spent lots of time thinking, searching, just lying down or sitting down, keeping quiet, and other stuff. Let's have the first part dedicated to thinking and some other stuff.

So much for a fun stay. It was quite ordinary. And yes, definitely I spent a lot of time thinking. For words to put on the board. For goodness' sake. Umaga, tanghali, gabi. Wala kaming ginawa kundi maglaro ng Scrabble. E bakit ba? E sa naisaksak ko yung tv na 110v sa 220v na outlet dahil sabi ni Papang diretso lang daw yun e. At sa di ko tinignan yung boltahe nya. Sorry! Kaya wala ng tv dun ngayon.

Anyway, ang malupit pa puro bisaya pa yung kalaro ko. Hindi ko maintindihan ang mga sinasabi! Di ko nga alam na ako na pala ang kausap nila e.

Wala akong ibang marinig kundi gihapon, kaayo, at kung anu-ano pa. Natuto ako ng ilang mga salita pero hindi pa masyado. Ngayon ko nga lang natutunan na sadyang ganun pala ang pagpronounce ng mga bisaya sa ilang salita.

Halimbawa ang coin. Putek ang sabi nung babae kowen. Takte sa isip ko anong kowen? Pagkalapag nung tira, napanganga na lang ako. Muntik na kong humalakhak katulad nung naging halakhak ko nung makita ko yung ex ni Maot (panget). Buti na lang talaga napigilan ko. Tapos, nagtuturo yung isa pang bisaya, owil daw. Takte. Mababaliw ako sa kanila.

Pero, hindi lang naman pag-iiscrabble ang ginawa ko. Minsan pinanonood ko lang yung langit sa gabi. Ang sarap kasing tingnan pag walang mga konkretong nakaharang sa paligid.

FYI, ang ibig sabihin nga pala ng salitang 'libang' sa bisaya ay tae. Kaya next time, wag nyong sasabihin sa isang bisaya na 'Tara maglibang-libang naman tayo.'

Well, yan muna for now. Nga pala, mahigit isang linggo din akong walang selpown kaya sa mga kaibigan kong nais akong makontak, landlayn lang ang pwede. Itanong nyo na lang kay Bonyang ang aking landlayn.

A Change of Plans

2007-05-16T00:34:00.000+08:00

It somehow amazed me. I was just playing on the computer. Then, out of nowhere, my mother asked if she could borrow my phone, so I went down and gave it to her. She suddenly popped out this question.

"Sama ka sa Hindang(which is in Leyte, by the way) bukas?" Nagtaka ko. Ang alam ko kasi, sa Cavite nila balak lumakad kasama ang isa ko pang tiya. Naluluha din ang mga mata ni Nanay at nanginginig ang boses. Kaya, nasambit ko na lang, "Ha? What's up?"

Saka niya sinabi ang balita. My grandmother(my mother's mom) was dead. "Oh," was all the reply I can give. I stood there silent momentarily then went back to my game. No, I didn't shed a tear. To be honest, I didn't grow up close to her. I felt bad for my mom.

Biruin mo ilang taon niyang hindi nakita ang nanay niya and suddenly she's dead. It was just a day after mother's day, too. Felt bad, yes. Amazed, somehow. All in a snap. But like what I said to a friend, death is a blessing.

My mother, with my youngest brother, and her sisters had already flown to the province about 16 hours before I've posted this. It may be possible that we, my other brother and my father, would be going there, too.

Below is something I wrote about death. I dedicate it to my grandmother whom I could have known much better than I know her now.

Death fills the air with silence.
It is deafening.
Death devours light into darkness.
It is blinding.
Tears were shed but none were seen.
Cries were moaned but none were heard.
Pity them not for death is a blessing.
Another soul has been rested again.

Di Lang Siguro Dahil Sa Init

2007-05-01T23:30:00.000+08:00

Natutulala sa harap ng kompyuter.

Natutulala sa harap ng telebisyon.

Natutulala sa dingding at kisame.

Natutulala sa langit.

Natutulala sa kawalan.

Pilitin ko mang mag-isip, wala naman maisip.

Pilitin ko mang mangusap, wala namang mapag-usapan.

May lamat na ang utak ko.

Inaamag na ang utak ko.

Nandito na siya. Ang kinatatakutan ko. Walang iba kundi ang block minded.

TAE. Sigurado replay 'to bukas.

Tama Na Naman

2007-04-29T01:40:00.000+08:00

... ... ... ...

Yan lang ang nasabi ko.

Tulad ng dati o ng kadalasang nangyayari, tama na naman ang ekspektasyon ko. Sa malas ko lang siguro, ang mga ekspektasyong iyon ay hindi naman iyong mga tipong sumasang-ayon sa akin dahil nakasanayan ko ng asahang maganap ang pinakanegatibo o/at ang pinaka-di-pabor sa aking mga gusto. It hurts to predict(or analyze maybe a more appropriate word) a future and find out you're right.

I've predicted that me and my ex-girlfriend will eventually break-up. I've predicted that someone I liked will have a different boyfriend even though I know she likes me too. Pero kahit pa may nagagawa akong tulad nito, matinding sakit pa rin ang nararamdaman ko bagama't hindi niyo na kailanman siguro ako makikitang umiyak.

Hindi dahil sa manhid na ko o/at bato na ang puso ko. Hindi rin dahil sa masyadong masaya ang naging buhay ko hanggang sa kasalukuyan. It's just that I don't know how to shed a tear anymore. Kahit nga ang mga paghikbi ay matagal ko ng nalimutan kung paano.

Sa katunayan, bago ko isulat ito, pinipilit kong umiyak. Kahit hikbi walang lumabas. Ni isang patak ng luha walang nahulog. Nabasa lang ang mga mata ko. Humahagikgik lang ako. Oo, humahagikgik ako. Ang mga dating ngawa ko ay pinalitan na ng mga mahihinang hagikgik. Hindi ko alam kung bakit.

Mga dalawang taon na ang nakalipas ng magsimula ito. Di ko alam kung saan. Di ko alam kung bakit. Di ko alam kung ano. Di ko na lang ilalagay. Para konti lang kayong makaalam. Para konti lang kayong mag-iisip na maaaring baliw na ko.

Di ko naman tinatanggi yun. Malaki rin kasi ang posibilidad na mas baliw pa ko sa inaasahan niyo.

Just Couldn't Agree More

2007-04-26T01:39:00.000+08:00

Nai-stumble-an laang naman. Walang personalan.

Ferris Wheel

2007-04-25T23:24:00.000+08:00

I didn't know why people love riding the ferris wheel until two to three days ago thanks to an anime I've seen for the first time though it's been repeated an awful lot of times now.

Before, I thought the ferris wheel is just a boring ride since it just goes around and around slowly. It is very predictable. Until the anime, or a character in it, said that many live a life like that of the ferris wheel. I couldn't disagree with him.

Every time a coach approaches the top, those riding in it seem to be excited just like when we are sure of our successes in real life. The opposite is applicable in real life, too.

There are also times that the ride gets stuck at the top or at the bottom. Sometimes the ride feels awfully slow. Sometimes we're surprised it's already the last round trip.

A ride must also come to an end for it to begin anew.

How slow and boring the ferris wheel maybe, it will always be fun if there's somebody to ride it with, very much like life. It would be more fun if that somebody is someone you love and loves you back.

Take It From An Old Man

2007-04-19T23:54:00.000+08:00

*This is an adaptation of a story from my 3rd year high school text book.

A long time ago, a troubled woman approached a famous wise man.

Woman: Please help me.

Wise man: What is your problem?

Woman: My husband has just returned from war but I am still sad. All he does is eat and sleep. He is not what he used to be before the war. He does not even bother to talk to me anymore. It is as if I do not exist even though I'm right in front of his eyes. What am I supposed to do?

Wise man: Your problem is difficult. Nonetheless, do not lose faith. Bring to me a whisker from the fiercest of tigers in its den in the nearby mountains. Only then shall I tell you what to do.

The woman left uneasy and doubting but she felt she had no choice. One night, when the woman's husband was asleep, she went to the tiger's den in the mountains, bringing along some fresh meat. As soon as she arrived in front of the cave, she felt the tiger's eyes piercing her from the darkness. Afraid, she left the meat and ran away.

She did not give up, though. She came back every night and offered the tiger some meat. It took some time before the tiger had let her into the den without posing any threat. Six months passed from the first night and she was able to touch and caress the tiger's head. Thinking that it was finally time, she took a whisker from the beast and left as if nothing happened.

The next day, she returned to the wise man.

Woman: Here is the whisker you have asked me to bring. What do you intend to do with it?

Wise man: That is yours. Now that you have tamed the fiercest of the beasts in this land, tame the beast that resides in your home. Do the same as what you did with the tiger.

The woman left very confident and sure of what she will do. Just like the wise man said, she successfully tamed the heart of her husband gone fierce.

The wise man was Confucius.

Just in Case You Forgot

2007-04-19T02:18:00.000+08:00

For more of these, click here.

Committing Murder 1

2007-04-17T22:04:00.000+08:00

Hope is one of the greatest gifts man has received from God. Unfortunately, it also brings pain especially when one hopes on the most unlikely turn of events. It becomes more painful when your brain starts to see that the ideal (one hoped for) event is impossible.

So, as to (hopefully) help people undergoing such difficulty I have devised a few ways to kill 'hope'.
They are the ff.:

1. Get real. Usually, it is the imagination that creates 'hope.' Avoiding to imagine the 'ideal' event will most likely decrease hoping.

2. Consider all odds. It is also the case that one disregards certain obstacles to the fulfillment of the 'ideal' event.

3. Keep self away from those that may remind of the 'ideal' event.

4. Avoid thinking about those that are involved in the 'ideal' event. Keep them out of the mind.

5. For these to be most effective, all must be done at the same time since 'hope', if not killed in one blow, will only come back.

Note: "Wag mong kunin ang pag-asa ng isang tao. Baka ito na lang ang natitira sa kanya." - FPJ
(Seriously, sinabi niya yan.)

Asa

2007-04-17T00:52:00.000+08:00

April 16 Express Horoscope for Scorpio: May matutuklasang lihim na nagmamahal sayo. Wag itong ikagalit.

Siya kaya? Sana. Pero...

...Asa pa, boy. Asa pa.

Sana madali lang pumatay ng pag-asa. Para di na ko nahihirapan. Alam ko namang malabo ang inaasam ko e. Ayaw lang talaga sumuko ng puso ko.

Huwatadey!

2007-04-10T18:43:00.000+08:00

Today I went back to campus, the first one after a few days, to get my class cards. And guess what? I got a 3 for my Math55( Elementary Analysis 3)!! Hooray!! I was expecting a 4 as a matter of fact. I never thought the finals would actually save me this time. Unfortunately, that's the only class card I've got.

Also today, the CRS has now posted the grades for most of my subjects except for my Math55.
And I've got a 1.5 for both my ES10(Engineering Science) and Comm3(Communication) classes! I also have a 2.75 for my Discrete Math and 2.5 for both my Computer Science major and Physics class.

Not bad if I think so myself. Though their not really that great, I still thank God for not letting me take the removals (or even retake) for Math55. Of course, I also thank my groupmates in ES10 with whom I worked (and shared some secrets) with. But I won't be taking my ES10 class or my very enjoyable Physics class if not for Janny Freddy Ricky Very Nabi, so thank you.

Other than the past semester turning out just right, my dad left for the hospital tonight to have an ear operation and my mom went with him. I would also like to ask you to please include my dad in your prayers, too. Thank you very much in advance.

Hala sige lang ng sige

2007-04-10T00:00:00.000+08:00

Note: This poem means something else though I am bragging about my stealth abilities at the same time. It's twisted so beware. You may be required to think.

Master of Stealth

I watch while being watched
with eyes that see through the dark.
I hear while being listened to
with ears sensitive to the odd.
I am a master of stealth
though I am no spy.

I creep into your homes
in the silence of the night.
I take what I take
and leave without a trace.
I am a master of stealth
though I am no thief.

I take a life
with hands as light as a feather.
I sneak past others
with feet quick as the wind.
I am a master of stealth
though I am not a ninja.

I watch, I take, I sneak.
I work hidden in the shadows.
I leave no trace of my act.
Catch me but you can't
for I am a master of stealth
but not a thief, a spy, nor a ninja.

AARGH!!

2007-04-09T02:01:00.000+08:00

Head. Bashed by two sledge hammers.
Forehead. Power drilled.
Eyes. Burning.
Limbs twisted. Sounds of cracking.
Can't move legs nor arms.
Fingers smashed with hammers.

Somebody. Anybody.
Please. Help. Stop.
This madness. Insanity.
Please. End.
This misery. Agony.
In one blow.
Please end this life.

Not Another One Anymore

2007-04-04T00:51:00.000+08:00

Regrets. As far as I know, no human have escaped them. Why? Because humans long for perfection but humans are born to make mistakes. It's just natural to blame one's self for the consequences of one's actions when he gets hurt. The same goes for anger.

Regret, as defined by Wikipedia.org, is an intelligent or emotional dislike for personal past acts and behaviors. Usually, regret is felt after a certain consequence of one's past actions has hurt him or others considered "dear" to him after the act has been done.

But for regret to be felt, a series of realizations of cause and effect must first occur. This may lead to a long backtracking of events or just an instant realization that it was his own fault. In the case that others are blamed, the feeling of anger is better associated with the emotion though at times, regret is often accompanied by anger to one's self.

I have had a share of my regrets though I can't remember most of them except for one.

I followed what my brain told me and decided to let a certain girl have her way instead of courting her knowing the fact that I would get the "yes" for sure. Of course I was hurt. The girl and her boyfriend were my classmates. And without a doubt, I regret that decision but not anymore.

The next girl who came, well, I had no regrets with her but though I listened to my heart this time, she still went away.

And finally, here I am at a loss. I've just confessed to a someone but I think she's gone cold on me. If I even have the slightest chance of making her love me, I don't know. And ,no I'm not writing this for her to take pity on me. But one thing's for sure, I don't want to regret confessing to her.

Neither would I want to regret falling for a friend no matter how much pain it would put me through.

ebawS

2007-03-29T21:45:00.000+08:00

Swabe ang mga huling araw ng Marso, lalo na ang mula ika-18 hanggang sa ika-29.

Swabe ang 18, 19, at 21 dahil sa pare-parehong dahilan, nakakita ako ng isang mamaw , ayon sa depinisyon ng KayoKasiEh, sa bawat araw na nabanggit. Yung sa 18, nakabestidang bughaw. Yung sa 19, nakapulang dress at may kapartner pa. Yung sa 21, nabulagan ako at inakala ko pang isang babae. Tae.

Swabe ang 23 dahil kinagabihan (6-8pm) may exam ng CS32. Pero di pa sya dyan nagtatapos.

Mas malupit sa pagka-swabe ang 24 dahil 3rd long ng Physics 72 ng alas-siyete hanggang alas-nuwebe at ng aking nanenelikadong Math55 isang oras pagkatapos ng Physics. Buti na lang napagulong ako sa katatawa ng aking mga kagrupo. Napa-english ng walang dahilan. Nag-LSS pag biglang nanahimik ang paligid. Natanong din ng "Nakaranas ka na ba ng identity crisis?" out of nowhere.

Swabe ang 26 kasi sabay ang Finals ng Physics72 at ng hinayupak na paksyet na Math55. Pagkauwi ko pa, imbes na makapagpahinga pinasend sa'kin ang slides ng ES10 na hindi naman dapat inaaral dahil uno naman ang standing ng karamihan.

Swabe ang 27 dahil tulad ng inaasahan 30 mins. lang ang finals ng ES10 di ko nga lang sigurado kung tama ang pinagsususulat ko dun.

Swabe ang 28 kasi natapos din sa wakas ang finals ng CS32. Miraculously, hindi ako bangag. Sana nga lang maging epektibo ang deduction ko. Tapos nun, gumawa pa kami ng bangka. With this, I would like to thank our sponsors- Toy Kingdom, National Bookstore, at syempre ang Bahay ni , for WHATEVER NEED you have.

Swabe ang 29 dahil pasado ala-una na ng madaling araw di pa ko umuuwi at gumagawa pa kami ng bangka. At natuklasan kong madalang na pala ang bus na paBaclaran pag ala-una y medya na ng madaling araw. Sa awa naman ng Diyos, nakauwi naman ako ng buhay at buo pa.

At kung hanggang ngayon ay di mo pa nagegets kung bakit "ebawS" ang title nito, swabe ka. Ang slow mo.

Mga Minumunimuni

2007-03-15T00:35:00.000+08:00

Things I learned/confirmed over the past 2 weeks:

1. Pekeng Manila ang napapanood sa 'Maynila.' Bulok na sya. Lalo na sa Ermita. Puro pokpok. Kadiri.

2. Mautak ang Pinoy. Pwede kang manood ng World Lights Expo sa may Coastal Rd. ng libre. Umakyat ka lang ng foot bridge. Kaso nautakan tayo ng Koreano, tinaasan ang bakod ng foot bridges at ng kanilang expo.

3. M= (10XY)^Z where M= number of missed hours of sleep, X= number of times a certain someone entered your mind, Y= amount of time that someone was in your mind in seconds, Z= all other worries in the world. Bakit times 10? Ganun lang talaga. Ako naman gumawa kaya wag ka ng kumontra.

4. Since people use symbols to communicate, minsan ang communication ay napipigilan. Madalas kasing ignored, misunderstood, inadequate, or hindi naiintindihan. Ito rin ang dahilan kaya may mga manhid, tanga, and more often than always, if ever that exists, mga SL.

5. Hinding-hindi ako magpapanaturalize para maging kano. Hindi ko tatakasan ang naging responsibilidad ko ng magsimula akong tawagin na iskolar ng bayan. Sorry to offend my grandparents but running away isn't the practical solution anymore.

6. Kung boboto man ako, puro bagets tulad ni defensor at escudero. Philippine politics need new blood. at masarap mapanood na magbangayan ang dalawang habang-buhay ng magkaribal sa senado. Kung may oldies man, si villar lang at arroyo papaburan ko.

7. Nakakaawa na talaga paaralan ko ng hayskul kahit na may swimming pool na sila. Their on a streak. 3 years ng ako lang ang pumapasa. Nakakaawa.

8. Mahal ko na si . . . . Pero tila may mahal na siyang iba. Who cares? I'll tell her anyway. I won't give a damn kung ayaw niya sa'kin.

Silent Lover

2007-03-08T18:55:00.000+08:00

Note: This is the sequel to "Sky's Dead." Created a few days after the first one was done and read by someone.

Upon the sky’s death, clouds of darkness filled the land, hiding the sorrow of the silent lover, keeping the mourning moon from the eyes of the unsuspecting people. She had lost a friend, a companion, and a most beloved.

Since the beginning of time, the lonesome brightness of the moon at night had always been accompanied by the sky’s innocent care and compassion. The sky had given her the warmth the sun could not offer when the cold, northern winds blew and something to laugh at when all is blue. But now, he is gone.

Overwhelming pity for the sky and herself occupied the heart of the midnight guardian. Crystal drops flowed relentlessly to the universe from her eyes, turning into stars. She was ready to give him everything but the sky rejected her offers. He gave her nothing but pain and his death.

The site of her most beloved’s rebirth and death once again brings happiness and pain at the same time. Even so, she continues to love the sky though all she owns of him is just a soulless, lifeless, heartless him.

Sky's Dead

2007-03-08T18:53:00.000+08:00

Note: This was created some time during the first semester of AY '06-'07, a first of 3 parts.

Overwhelming joy filled the sky for almost 500 days which seemed to be years. He was loved and he loved back. With the sun’s warm rays of love, he was very contented. Death, from which the sky was saved, is nowhere to be felt.

As the sun is just like any other star decorating the great wall of the universe called the sky, they are not supposed to be and would never be. And after the 500 years of warmth, love, joy, and intense passion, the sky once again brings forth the night, blowing a wind of emptiness, getting colder as midnight draws nearer. Then, in a snap of a moment, the sky roars in sadness and hate for itself and taps every roof with tears enough to drown the burning heat of a 500-year love. For hours, he weeps, then stops.

He has finally quieted down but the silence is too much for the hearts are blazing in passion and at peak of their love. The silence drowns every shout, every scream, and every yell with its very striking message, the sky’s “dead.”

Yes, he is dead, killed by the fire of his own passion. He was burned at his own stake. After the 500 years of relief from the “death,” he returns to where he did not want to belong. Unfortunately, fate brought him back there.

But worry not. He lives again tomorrow, on the next, and once again someday. As the sun continues to rise from the east, so does the sky live again just to die once again 12 hours later.

Nakapanlalata

2007-03-07T02:48:00.000+08:00

Malupet ang martes na to.

Started the day at 4:30 am.

Had a class by 7 na muntik ko ng tulugan na naman kung hindi lang siya nagcheck ng class list.

Kumain ng whatchamacallit na nabibili sa math for PhP16 na sa pagkakaalam ko ay biskwit na kinaadikan ko na. Ang sarap nya putek. Tapos sasabayan ng nakakalasing daw sakin na taho. Sarap na recess. Sana may ganito nung elementary.

Klaseng malupet na naman by 10. Pero ok lang. Nadaan naman siya sa pamamagitan ng pagtapos sa isang libro ni bob ong. Dahil kay bob ong, nagmukha akong tanga na naman.

Nagpaka-"dakila" sa Halalan from 10 to until around 3. Free lunch naman kaya ayos.
Nagklase mula alas tres hanggang alas kuwatro upang matuto ng kalokohan tulad ng .... Wag na. Korni e.

Bumalik sa Halalan para mangamusta at makiinom ng juice at manood ng mga chicks na bumoboto. Though mas marami nung 10-3. Binigay din sakin ang isang "gift." Dahil dun natiyak na ang panalo nung kandidato, este, dumating na yung pinanalo ko dun sa palaro.

Pinagsauli at nagpasauli ng camera. Nahingan pa ng tsokolate. Nalagay pa tuloy sa alanganin yung crunch(tm).

Umuwi sa bahay. Nagbihis. Tumae. Nagbihis. Umalis. Kumain sa labas. Umuwi. Muntik pa mataga ng taxi. Nagbihis. At nag-. . .

. . .edit ng MP. Buti na lang talaga tapos na. Salamat na rin for my sponsor VBA for my gaming needs lalo na sa Onimusha Tactics na pinagdidiskitahan ngayon. May latest version na nga pala ang pinakamamahal naming VBA at available sya dito: hanapin mo sa google. Kung di mo alam ang VBA, aba hanapin mo na lang din sa google. Pinulot ko lang to.

Umidlip. May gumising para magtanong ng "differentiate call-by-reference with call-by-value." Tae talaga. Tae. Isang malupit-lupit at matigas-tigas na tubol.

At eto nga wala pang balak tapusin ang martes kahit miyerkules na. Sana umalpas na ang Marso ng walang sigwang humahadlang. Sana, sana. Tinatamad na ko e.

Testing

2007-03-07T02:05:00.000+08:00

Pagpasensyahan ang unang labas. Nagsisimula pa lang e. Nakakatanga sya. Sobra. Ang tanga tanga tanga tuloy ng pakiramdam ko. Man, this stinks. I really hate this.